Sunday, May 01, 2005

Moving...

Despite my affection for blogger, I've decided to try moving my blog over to Xanga so it will be more convenient for all of the Xanga crowd. The address is:

http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=Rachel924

However, I'm planning on probably using this blog to publish pictures. I'll probably notify you on my Xanga blog if I put pictures up. Of course, if I decide I don't like Xanga, I'll come back here. But for now, visit my Xanga site unless otherwise indicated by my Xanga site. :)

Until we have faces,
Rachel

Monday, April 25, 2005

You are most like Galadriel. There's just something about you that people like. A sort of aura. You're very kind to people, and you like to help others succeed. You're not as candid as most people would like. You don't have to share your deepest darkest secrets, but be more honest about things! You're more mature than most people your age, so don't worry!

Thursday, April 14, 2005

Ever feel like...

Ever feel like you're in one of those silly old movies where everyone is going way faster than it should be? Welcome to PHC...

Monday, April 11, 2005

April is the sweetest month

My version:

- for Jennifer -
April is the sweetest month, breeding
Lilacs out of the living land, mixing
Hopes and dreams, stirring
Eager roots with spring rain.
Winter made us cold, freezing
Earth in forgetful snow, drowning
A little life with dried tubers.

Spring suprises us, walking down the path
With the rays of gold, we walked to the cherry trees,
And went on in their sweetness, walking by the lake
And drak martinelli, and laughed for an hour.
Mi corazon tengo muy goza, porque tengo fidel
And we will dance in the moonlight
You took me on a walk
And I was thrilled. You said,
Rachel, look ahead.
And ahead we looked.
Straining to see the rays of glory breaking in the sky
I think, much of the day, and write poetry in the sun.

These are the roots that clutch, these are the branches that grow
And bear us fruit, sweet fruit. Daugher of God,
You can say, not guess, for you know
More than this broken world, where the sun beats
And the trees do not give shade, and the stream not true relief
These are dry stones, they give no sound of water. Only
There is a shadow under His wings
Come in under the shadow of the most High
And He will show you something different from either
Your shadow at the morning behind you
Met with His shadow following you
I will show you beauty in the palms of His hands.

- R. L. Patterson

Sunday, April 10, 2005

Memory, desire... and life anew.

April is the cruellest month, breeding
Lilacs out of the dead land, mixing
Memory and desire, stirring
Dull roots with spring rain.

Winter kept us warm, covering
Earth in forgetful snow, feeding
A little life with dried tubers.

Summer surprised us, coming over the Starnbergersee
With a shower of rain; we stopped in the colonnade,
And went on in sunlight, into the Hofgarten,
And drank coffee, and talked for an hour.
Bin gar keine Russin, stamm' aus Litauen, echt deutsch.
And when we were children, staying at the archduke's,
My cousin's, he took me out on a sled,
And I was frightened. He said, Marie,
Marie, hold on tight. And down we went.
In the mountains, there you feel free.
I read, much of the night, and go south in the winter.

What are the roots that clutch, what branches grow
Out of this stony rubbish? Son of man,
You cannot say, or guess, for you know only

A heap of broken images, where the sun beats,

And the dead tree gives no shelter, the cricket no relief,
And the dry stone no sound of water. Only
There is shadow under this red rock,
(Come in under the shadow of this red rock),
And I will show you something different from either

Your shadow at morning striding behind you
Or your shadow at evening rising to meet you;
I will show you fear in a handful of dust.

- T.S. Eliot

"Do not remember the former things,
Nor consider the things of old.
Behold, I will do a new thing,
Now it shall spring forth;
Shall you not know it?
I will even make a road in the wilderness
And rivers in the desert. "

- Isaiah 43:18-19


"Behold, I am making all things new."
-Revelations 21:5

Wednesday, April 06, 2005

Should we pursue our own happiness?

Yesterday's discussion in Philosophy was very good and thought-provoking. We discussed, in the context of Mill, Kant, Aquinas, Aristotle and Plato whether or not humans should, above all, pursue their highest happiness. Some people argued, in conjunction with Kant, that duty should be our highest motive. Others argued that happiness should be. Dr. Mitchell posed a very interesting question: suppose you were alone by a train tracks. A train was rapidly approaching, and there was a baby laying on the tracks. Will you save the baby, if everyone else thinks you committed suicide and the baby can't tell about how you saved its life? We then discussed, yes, if you do this, are you doing it out of a motivation of your own happiness, or out of a sense of duty. Interesting arguments were presented on either side.

I lean toward the Aristotelian viewpoint that pursuing your own happines is, in fact, a good thing. To put it in a Christian perspective, glorifying God and enjoying Him don't have to be put at odds. We glorify God because we enjoy Him, not, as it was proposed in class by Mr. Carver simply to glorify Him with enjoyment as a side product.

I was evaluating this perspective in class, however. I don't want to hold to something just for the sake of holding to it.

Well I walked into Biology Lab after Philosophy class, and sat down to read some Kagan before class started. I opened up Kagan to the marker I put in to the book during spring break - a quote by Lewis.

If there lurks in most modern minds the notion that to desire our own good and earnestly to hope for the enjoyment of it is a bad thing, I submit that this notion has krept in from Kant and the stoics and is no part of the Christian faith. Indeed, if we consider the unblushing promises of reward and the staggering nature of the rewards promised in the Gospels, it would seem that Our Lord finds our desires not too strong, but too weak. We are half-hearted creatures, fooling around with drink and sex when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased. - C.S. Lewis, The Weight of Glory

Reading this quote after having read Kant put it in an entirely new light. C.S. Lewis is most definitely not a Kantian. Yes, we should desire our own good, because our own good is found in glorifying God and enjoying Him forever.

Look where you're going.

“Consult not your fears but your hopes and your dreams. Think not about your frustrations, but about your unfulfilled potential. Concern yourself not with what you tried and failed in, but with what it is still possible for you to do.”
Pope John XXIII

Look where you're going: Boundless article

Sunday, April 03, 2005

Pray

Please pray for my grandmother. She has leukemia.

Wednesday, March 30, 2005

Being Home:)

It's wonderful to be home. Yesterday Mom and I shopped at the outlet malls and found some great deals on spring clothes. Now we're getting ready to head off to the beach. I just have to say, God is so good. I just want to praise Him for His daily blessings - for who HE is! He has blessed me with a great family, with health (!!!), with good friends back at PHC, with His peace and joy and presence. Give thanks to the Lord, for He is good. His mercy endures forever!

Sunday, March 27, 2005

Happy Easter

Happy Easter, everyone!

Saturday, March 26, 2005

In love with death: the decision to starve Terri Schiavo

(new and improved from last night's ramblings)

First, here's a opinion piece by Peggy Noonan (Wall Street Journal) on the issue: http://www.opinionjournal.com/columnists/pnoonan/?id=110006460. Peggy's article is entitled In Love with Death. A really good read.

I recently finished reading the Abolition of Man by C.S. Lewis. The Schiavo case seems to be a micro-example of what Lewis was writing about. Lewis said a world that destroys values ultimately destroys man. Do the values behind the decision to let Terri starve empower man or destroy him?

Clearly, there is a distinction between administering lethal drugs and pulling the plug on someone being sustained by a machine. Where in this spectrum does Terri lie, and what values does the decision to starve Terri eminate?

It seems that pulling the plug on someone is merely allowing them die a natural death. Without the machine, they cannot live. Yes, Terri is dying a "natural" death, not due to the fact that there is not a machine supporting her, but due to the fact that she is being denied food and water - essential things that everyone needs to survive. To me this is the difference, and the reason why allowing Terri to starve supports values of death instead of life.

The "triumph" of Terri's husband is to allow his wife to die. But his triumph seems to be an example of the triumph of values of death in modern society.

"Each new power won by man is a power over man as well. Each advance leaves him weaker as well as stronger. In every victory, besides being the general who triumphs, he is also the prisoner who follows the triumphal car." - Lewis.

The removal of Terri's feeding tube is only one example of the deterioration of the value of life in modern times. Think about the countless babies that die every week due to abortion. For most of these children, they would be full functioning adults, their lives taken away because our society does not value them.

This is not a triumph. This is a tragedy.

Yet, the fact that there has been such an outcry over Terri shows that the moral conscience of the nation, while perhaps deadened, has not been silenced. And that is good news.

Remember to pray for Terri.

Friday, March 25, 2005

Yes! I am home

Well, everything was going well Wednesday evening until I realized, standing at the American Airlines ticket counter in Dulles, I had bought a round-trip ticket for Reagan airport in downtown D.C. So Jennifer and I raced the clock. Standing at the correct counter in Reagan, I was there about 25 minutes before the plane was scheduled to take off. I gave my drivers license to a lady, who came back fifteen minutes later with a ticket. She handed it to me, told me to ride the elevator down to the bottom floor, go to gate 30, and run! So, I ran to my gate and was the very last person to walk on the plane. I walked up to my seat and told my crazy story to the woman sitting next to me. "You're lucky," she said. "No, I'm blessed," I answered as I watched the Capitol building fade into the distance as the plane took off.

This all took place with the grace of God, because another man who was five minutes later than I did not get on that plane. I have to thank all my wonderful friends who were back in the D3 lobby praying for me. When I called Jeremiah to tell him I had made it, they all sang a song of praise to God. It was great. I was thinking, "I have great friends." So thanks. Your prayers worked!

It's beautiful here at home. It's around 80 or so degrees and sunny. It's great to be home with my family. I missed them a lot. Easter is coming! It's that time of year when we get to celebrate the central message of our faith - Christ's death and resurrection. I'm so glad I get to spend it here with my family.

Sunday, March 20, 2005

C.S. Lewis on Kant:

"If God were a Kantian, who would not have us till we came to Him from the purest and best motives, who could be saved?"

--C.S. Lewis, The Problem of Pain

Thursday, March 17, 2005

St. Patrick's Day

I sincerely hope that on this St. Patrick's day we can set aside British vs. Irish quarrels and respectfully remember and honor St. Patrick, the great Scottish missionary that brought the Gospel of Jesus Christ to Ireland. He was captured and brought to the island as a slave, escaped, but later returned, despite the Irish laws that captured escaped slaves could be put to death. He came back to the people that enslaved Him and brought with him the Gospel.

"It is sometimes supposed that St. Patrick's apostolate in Ireland was an unbroken series of peaceful triumphs, and yet it was quite the reverse. No storm of persecution was, indeed stirred up to assail the infant Church, but the saint himself was subjected to frequent trials at the hands of the druids and of other enemies of the Faith. He tells us in his "Confessio" that no fewer than twelve times he and his companions were seized and carried off as captives, and on one occasion in particular he was loaded with chains, and his death was decreed. But from all these trials and sufferings he was liberated by a benign Providence. It is on account of the many hardships which he endured for the Faith that, in some of the ancient Martyrologies, he is honoured as a martyr." - From the Catholic Encyclopedia


From St. Patrick Himself--
I bind to myself today
The strong virtue of the Invocation of the Trinity:
I believe the Trinity in the Unity
The Creator of the Universe.

I bind to myself today
The virtue of the Incarnation of Christ with His Baptism,
The virtue of His crucifixion with His burial,
The virtue of His Resurrection with His Ascension,
The virtue of His coming on the Judgement Day.

I bind to myself today
The virtue of the love of seraphim,
In the obedience of angels,
In the hope of resurrection unto reward,
In prayers of Patriarchs,
In predictions of Prophets,
In preaching of Apostles,
In faith of Confessors,
In purity of holy Virgins,
In deeds of righteous men.

I bind to myself today
The power of Heaven,
The light of the sun,
The brightness of the moon,
The splendour of fire,
The flashing of lightning,
The swiftness of wind,
The depth of sea,
The stability of earth,
The compactness of rocks.

I bind to myself today
God's Power to guide me,
God's Might to uphold me,
God's Wisdom to teach me,
God's Eye to watch over me,
God's Ear to hear me,
God's Word to give me speech,
God's Hand to guide me,
God's Way to lie before me,
God's Shield to shelter me,
God's Host to secure me,
Against the snares of demons,
Against the seductions of vices,
Against the lusts of nature,
Against everyone who meditates injury to me,
Whether far or near,
Whether few or with many.

I invoke today all these virtues
Against every hostile merciless power
Which may assail my body and my soul,
Against the incantations of false prophets,
Against the black laws of heathenism,
Against the false laws of heresy,
Against the deceits of idolatry,
Against the spells of women, and smiths, and druids,
Against every knowledge that binds the soul of man.

Christ, protect me today
Against every poison, against burning,
Against drowning, against death-wound,
That I may receive abundant reward.

Christ with me, Christ before me,
Christ behind me, Christ within me,
Christ beneath me, Christ above me,
Christ at my right, Christ at my left,
Christ in the fort,
Christ in the chariot seat,
Christ in the poop,
Christ in the heart of everyone who thinks of me,
Christ in the mouth of everyone who speaks to me,
Christ in every eye that sees me,
Christ in every ear that hears me.

I bind to myself today
The strong virtue of an invocation of the Trinity,
I believe the Trinity in the Unity
The Creator of the Universe.

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Hangin' On

Ever feel like this?




As I said in my last post, midterms are over. It feels kind of weird to have them done. I'm just going to resolve not to worry about my grades, not to worry about some stupid grades I've gotten lately (that were in conjunction with some pleasantly suprising grades, too). This is my goal - don't worry, trust God, move on with life.

Easier said than done, huh?

I just kind of feel like I'm in this half-way place in my life. Midterms are over, that means that I'm about half-way done with my 4th semester, which means I'm almost half-way done with college. I feel like I half know what God wants for my life, but I have no idea how the particulars will work out. My family back home is in a half-way place... So I just feel like the MercyMe song: "Almost there, almost where I'm supposed to be, it's not all clear, but you're still guiding me."

I'm gonna keep hanging on to this cliff, though!

Midterms

Midterms are over.

Monday, March 14, 2005

Yeah, I'm a copycat...

1. What time did you get up this morning? 7:30
2. Diamonds or pearls? Both! Actually, it depends on the occasion, but I think I like pearls better, especially if I were to have a whole necklace of them.
3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? National Treasure.
4. What is your favorite TV show? Laugh if you'd like: my family loves to get together and watch Pax's Sue Thomas F.B.Eye and Early Edition. I enjoy watching Law and Order sometimes, and it seems that I may like the X-files.
5. What did you have for breakfast? Scrambled eggs, an English muffin, and a sausage patty.
6. What is your middle name? Lea (pronounced Le-ah, not Lee)
7. What is your favorite cuisine? Ethnic foods, especially Hispanic/Latin foods. I also like Indian curry and Japanese food (I was a big sushi fan when I could eat fish).
8. What foods do you dislike? Sharp cheese.
9. What are your favorite potato chips? Well, oil and vinegar in America, and all the cool flavors in South Africa, like chicken-flavored and mesquite
10. What is your favorite CD at the moment? Caedmon Call's Share the Well
11. What kind of car do you drive? If only...
12. Favorite sandwich? Portabello Mushroom, Chicken salad
13. What characteristics do you despise? A domineering disposition.
14. Favorite item of clothing? Leather boots.
15. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? On a vacation I'd go to the UK: Scotland, Ireland, and England.
16. What color is your favorite tie? LOL... Well, on guys (obviously) I like dark red
17. Favorite brand of clothing? Gap
18. Where would you retire to? Somewhere cozy where I will finally write my novel.
19. Favorite time of day? Early afternoon is when I feel best.
20. Where were you born? Mercy Hospital in Miami
21. Favorite sport to watch? Figure skating
24. What fabric detergent do you use? Arm and Hammer
25. Coke or Pepsi? Neither
26. Are you a morning person or night owl? Kind of somewhere in between, I don't stay up all night but I am definitely not a morning person. Don't talk to me before 8 a.m....
27. What is your shoe size? 7.
28. Do you have pets? A bird back at home.
30. What is your favorite author? C.S. Lewis, then comes Tolkien

Wednesday, March 09, 2005


Not my own picture, but an important reminder and something God's been teaching me.

A picture I took . . .


Thursday, March 03, 2005

For you, Stephanie

These pictures are for you, Stephanie, from a mafia game that happened two weeks ago. I finally got the program that posts pictures for me to work again, so I figured I'd upload some for you. I hope you like them. :) I should be able to put more pictures up now.